Never say never
The statement is so true.
How many times have I said "never" will I and I've very quickly eaten my words.
Today it holds true....again!
Today I bought skinny jeans!!!!
Yep I broke down and bought skinny jeans.
Mom & Dad gave me an awesome pair of boots for Christmas but for them to be worn to their full potential I needed skinny jeans or dark brown leggings.
Since MOST of my jeans are too big for me right now, I figured a new pair of jeans would be the best bang for the buck. Yes...I said almost all my jeans are too big.
I really contemplated writing about this for about a month now but this seems to be the appropriate time.
I fear the hate mail I might get after today's post.....
I've lost weight...a lot of weight. I'm 12lbs smaller now than I was when I got pregnant.
12lbs is a lot of weight when in general I'm not a big person.
I've never really struggled with my weight, growing up I was often picked on for being too small, scrawny, skinny, boney, boyish, no curves....shall I go on?
I ate well but I was picky.
Now I'm much healthier, I eat more veggies now than ever and though I still enjoy junk food in moderation and have a honest addiction to chocolate I do not starve myself in anyway shape or form.
Yet this weight loss freaks me out. My whole wardrobe is useless, I hate feeling so boney and mishapen.
I know so many of you are huffing and puffing right now thinking if only she knew how hard it was to struggle with weight.
My mom is over weight and I've seen her struggle so trust me I can relate to what you're going through. And I'm very proud to say she's doing her own weight loss journey now and so far has been very succesful....Go Mom!!! Love you.
But consider the other side of the story.
I'm made to feel GUILTY for being thin. People honestly get angry with me, they make me feel as if I should feel bad for being thin and not struggling with my weight.
I'm very lucky to be blessed with this but I have to deal with negativities of being thin as well.
Yet I envy those oh so womanly curves so many of you have that I just have not been blessed with.
All I'm trying to say is the grass could always be greener if we allow it.
We all have our own personal struggles whether it be weight, insecurity, addictions, etc.
So don't judge, let's see the beauty in everyone and appreciate our differences.
And when I wear my skinny jeans, don't hate, though I'm trying to dress cute and be somewhat fashionable....I'm secretly screaming insecurity inside and hoping I'm not being a huge "faux pas"