Kristen & I have been talking a lot about how we want our lives to be, what we want for ourselves, our children, and what we need to do, what we need to change to get there.
I recently read, The Success Principles, where it basically said (I’m the worst for remembering exact quotes) that for new things to come to your life, you need to start doing new things. For change to come to your life, you need to change, do something different, do something you’ve never done before (major paraphrasing at this point) with that in mind we’ve started doing just that. Implementing change, and the next few months, possibly years, should be quite an adventure but we know it’s what we want. Change is always scary but quite truthfully, necessary.
On top of that I was having a day where I was feeling discouraged about wedding inquiries that were not leading to confirmed bookings. In fact I was feeling discouraged about how my whole 2011 photography season seemed to be shaping up in general. And then a few things hit me, when I looked at the big picture, some of these non-booked weddings I probably would eventually have had to turn down anyway because of the changes taking place in our lives, the more I thought about it, the more I realized maybe it wasn’t so bad after all. Maybe everything was working out just as it should.
That’s when this Bible verse came to me, For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
I immediately started to fill up and did everything I could to not cry. All this time I’ve been trying to make plans, make these goals, create this certain life for myself and none if it seemed to be working. It was at this moment that I realized, God has plans for me and His plans could very well NOT be my plans.
I’ve thought a lot about this lately, about simply giving up, leaving it all in God’s hands and just moving forward. Trust in Him that everything is working out exactly as it should be. Faith is hard though, that blind trust of just believing is always easier said than done. But again, like change, is now necessary.
However, here I am, at a crossroads, where I am giving up but not quitting, where I am implementing change and moving forward but I am having FAITH that in the end everything will work out just as it should.