January 22, 2010

Think, think, think....

To quote Winnie the Pooh "think, think, think"
I'm a thinker. Often too much and about things that I have no control over.
Or I do something and then go back and think, could I have done it better?
This week has been a difficult week with Jesse, it started Sunday night and gradually the week got better but the more that Jesse slept, the less I slept.
Last night Jesse was up at 2:55am and back asleep at 3:10am (I know...how awesome is that)
but when I got back in bed I was WIDE awake. I tossed, I turned, I had a drink of water, and I thought.
I thought about my photography, I thought about my family, I thought about yesterday being my Dad's birthday and not being home to celebrate with him. I thought about what happens when it's time for me to go back to work from maternity leave, I thought about the chores not done, I thought about not being able to go shopping with the Christmas money that's just burning a hole in my wallet.
I thought....
I'm not sure what time it was when I finally did doze back off to dreamland but I'm sure it was close to 4am. Then 6am Jesse was up again and then 7am for the day. Surprisingly I'm not feeling "too" tired.
I just can't figure out why I can't settle my mind?
But then I've always been this way, so why fight who I am?
As long as I feel rested enough to function, there's no point in letting it bother me :)
On another note, last night I tuned in to The [b] school to hear an interview between wedding photographers  Becker and Jasmine Star. It was so good and so insightful!! I don't know if they realize how grateful photographers like myself are. They willingly share their tips & tricks of the trade. Not to compete with other photographers but to HELP them and to raise the bar of the wedding photography industry. I couldn't agree more. If they do happen to read this post today, Thank You!
Honestly it was soooo good that I'm even considering joining up the [b] school. I think it's exactly what I need to further my education/skills as a photographer. And what's  better than networking with other positive & supportive photographers? I haven't decided for sure yet. I need to "think" about it some more :)
And to finish off today's post....an extreme close up of Boone....he, he.
He's so cute!

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